Dear me,
Are you lost? You keep telling yourself life is too short to even bother about the little things that you might even forget later, but now you’re reflecting so much of yesterday that you have even forgotten to move forward. Time and tide awaits no man, bear that in mind! Don’t ever be too tangled in your strings of confusion because you suppose to be independent off your doings as you’ll be saving lives in future.
So why are you emo-ing? You’re having a hard time but you refuse to admit it anyways. Somewhat, you’re stuck in between being okay and not. Listing down the things that you missed, went sour or made you depressed seems endless now. But can’t you see many people out there would kill to be in your shoes?
People confided you when they are facing a downturn, but who can you confide when you are at that particular moment? You offered so many advices, half of which you yourself can’t even take in. It’s a shame that you can’t grow stronger after all that you’ve heard! Life is too short to commit all sorts of mistakes so learn them from others.
It has been a long journey before you are where you are now. Don’t ever thing about turning back because 18 years is too long of a period to ponder over what you want to be. Well, you might not be thinking of that till you were up to probably 8 years old but 10 years is more than enough! You have decided to be a doctor when you were 13, probably. I recalled you writing down “Pensyarah, Saintis and Arkitek” in your primary school profile card. Lol!
Whatever happens, life goes on. From now on, live life the way you wanted. Try not to compare with others, because their life is no way close to yours. You are you, you decide what you want and what you aim. At the end of the day, aren't we just the puppets of our emotions?
Love,
Estella



